silly wishes

Sometimes i wish you were a completely different person.
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Someone who calls me everyday just because you miss me and wanted to hear my voice.

Someone who's never too busy to reply my texts.

Someone who makes me laugh so hard i cry.

Someone who give me a shoulder to cry on when i am sad. Instead of being the reason for me to be sad and cry.

Someone who is always there to listen to me.

Someone who i can have a long conversation with, til midnight and we're nothing but tired.

Someone who would tell me about how your day went. Whether it's good or bad.

Someone who would accept me the way i am, the way my body looks, instead of telling me to suck in my tummy every time, or say that my thigh is way bigger than yours.

Someone who tell me that i look pretty, instead of mocking me about how my lashes looks like a broom. Or complaining about how you hate my eyeliner.

Someone who tell me that i am the prettiest girl, instead of comparing me to the other girl.

Someone who is not busy browsing with your phone whenever we meet up.

Someone i can share a bowl of indomie when it's raining outside.

Someone who knows what i feel even though i am not saying anything.

Someone who notices small changes that i do. Hair cuts, hair color, eye color. piercings. tattoos. (i am not getting a tattoo, btw)

Someone who ask me to go and meet your friends, but didn't leave me alone in the corner and busy talking to somebody else.

Someone who never wonder how many pairs of shoes that i own.

Someone who would lie down with me at the beach. Or in a field under the stars.

Someone who would do silly things with me. Or taking silly pictures.

Someone who take me to a nice, a casual but romantic dinner.

Someone who sends me flowers or homemade chocolate on val's day, with a sweet messages in a cheesy looking card. even though you know i don't really celebrate valentines.

Someone i can talk about the future and actually excited about it. not run away.

Someone who would show me how much you love me, every time we see each other.

p.s :
I love you so much. I just wish things were different sometimes.

expecting!

i have this weird habit ever since uni. i start giving myself a present on my birthday. (or any other day when i feel extra special). and not just me, my lil sis also do the same thing.

and as for this year, since it's gonna be my 25th birthday, i am gonna reward myself with an ultra mega special present :

*drumroll*

yes. it's the awesome Samsung Galaxy SIII. yay.

it's a little too big for my liking. i like SII better in shape and size wise.. this is too.. girly? but they didn't produce SII anymore, replaced by SIII. so yeah..
decided to get it cos my current phone is always running out of internal memory lately, and i have to keep deleting apps and some of my data. and, it's really hard to camwhore cos it didn't have any front cam, so expect a lot of camwhoring pic after i got this baby. :3

ehm, so anyways..

i told this to bf a while ago. that i want to get a new phone, as a present for myself. and he laughed. he said that i sound so pathetic and forever alone. T_T


forever alone guy

and now i realized... that it's really pathetic. =___="

inappropriate

i am not a skinny girl, i have curves here and there. i think ever since puberty i've never been skinny. i used to be really2 skinny when i was a little kid, but then i have no idea how i got big so fast. lol. and one thing that keep bugging me is this one question that everybody love to ask every time they meet me.

" did you gain weight? "

you know, I REALLY HATE this kind of question. i always thought that this is a really inappropriate question to ask. and people may not realized this and thought "oh come on it's just a simple question, why are you making such a big deal out of it?", but let me tell you something.. for some people, it hurts their feeling. and i am a part of that-some-people. i tried my best not to ask this question whenever i meet my friends, or family.

yesterday during a party, one of my cousin ask me the exact question, the moment he saw me, trying to make a conversation, i supposed. and i was like " no lah. " and i left him, and then i saw his father look at him with this oh-no-dont-ask-that-question kind of look. if i did gain my weight, it's none of your business anyway. you're not my doctor, or my personal trainer. so fug off.